I'm writing this blog because I am officially an adult now. I'm already 21 years old. Yay? I don't know if I should be happy since I know that my carefree childhood days are now over. But, with all the responsibility that I now have to carry, I did come upon several insightful thoughts, which I want to share. I am proud that I got to this age without making any 'mistakes' or having any problems that my age group usually encounter around this time. So, what am I talking about? I'm talking about vices.
I'm not saying I'm saintly or perfect; nobody is. In fact, there are a lot of things I don't like about myself: lazy, selfish, cynical, jealous, insecure, cowardly, etc... OK, let's stop bashing my overall personality. What I'm saying is that I am only human and by acknowledging this fact, I accept that I have a lot of faults. Despite these drawbacks to my character, there is one thing I'm extremely proud of about myself-- I have strong and clear ideologies in life, which I really stick to.
Ever since I was little, I promised myself that no bad words would spout from my mouth unless I'm really, really, really, really bloodthirsty kind of angry. I also promised myself that I would never drink, smoke, do drugs or have sex before the 'right time.' I'm glad that I managed to stick to these ideologies before I turned into an adult. It was hard. There were a lot of temptations, peer pressures and fights. Yes, I had to fight for these beliefs. I even got into a fist fight once just because I refused to bend down to peer pressure.
I am timid in real life, but I become assertive in saying "NO" when others persuade me to drink. I am not a KJ (kill joy). After all, I do drink and I have tasted a lot of alcoholic drinks from beers to cocktails to wines, even tequilla. See? It's just that, I don't like the taste of alcohol (thank God for that!) Thus, I only drink when the situation calls for it such as during parties or formal dinners. Another reason as to why I only drink moderately is because I don't want to make a fool of myself like what I've seen in others who have had too much beer. I don't like to have loss of self- control. It's so disgusting. I'm sorry for the harsh words I am using now, but I'm being affected by another person's misdemeanors and I think that it really sucks.
I just can't understand that person's POV and I'm 100% sure that that person also doesn't understand my ideologies either. I know that I'm too rigid in terms of sticking to these ideals, but I'm glad to say that it turned me into a better person. I just want what's best for me and for my parents. I just hope that other people realize the benefits of having this kind of thinking. So, I just don't understand why that person hasn't realized these things yet.
Indulging in drinking, smoking or any other vices is not bad altogether, but one must do it with limitations in mind;
hey, this sounds like a line from our thesis! see, I learned something! You can drink, but not to the point that you have to puke all over the bathroom door just to prove that you're 'cool' enough to be in the 'in' crowd. In terms of smoking, I don't really see the point in doing it, but if you think you have to do it, do it somewhere else where other people can't inhale the toxicity you're spreading. Drugs for me is a total no- no unless it's prescribed by a doctor or something. Sex-- don't get me started on that.
I did NOT write this to make other people bad or to make me a better person.
I'm just sharing my thoughts OK? Don't be offended. I learned a lot of things in writing this stuff so I hope that you learned something as well.